"... you can vanquish your demons only when you yourself are convinced of your own worth." ---- Author Adeline Yen Mah in Chinese Cinderella.
I have a sense of unreality today as things are going well. I am so blessed with the recent success of my books. I received a beautiful gift of a framed newspaper article about my life story and my motivation for writing my books in preparation for my Book Signing. How fortunate I am to have such good friends. Of course, I wish Chris and Fred were here to share this joy, but I know they are with me in spirit.
I want to emphasize to everyone reading this that you can have good things happen and joy in your life again. As I have said before, you are more than a bereaved parent. You will always have grief over the loss of your child, but you cannot let it define you. Your grief has to become integrated into your life so it is no longer your sole focus. You deserve to have a life again and to feel pleasure again.
I am fortunate that I found purpose in my books. Something creative is often a good outlet to deal with loss particularly if what you do commemorates your child's life. My outlet is writing, but yours can be drawing, painting, quilting, photography, scrap booking or gardening. Maybe something you did a long time ago and can pick up again. I really urge you to try something.
There has been no response from the police chief or Crime Tips. No surprise, but no matter. I will push on in a positive vein to memorialize Chris' life as I hope and pray for justice.